Entry 0036: Friends

Met with D today. As usual, he always has a different perspective on how he position himself in the society, how he gain his knowledge and experience, and how to live a life.

He keep emphasizing on reading, as what I understand from other sources, reading is the most important/effective way to accumulate knowledge.

From his perspective, there are four aspects of life that are needed to be focus on all time. There are family life, which is the root of yourself, love life, which adds color to the life, social life, where and how you position yourself in the crowd (society), and career life, where you gain your ego from. Lagging either one of those will make a life incomplete. As a person grows, he has to be expanding himself in every respect.

People always distracted by what lies in front, they often fail to see beyond the wall in front of their eyes. Seeing beyond is a skills needed to be learn by time, I find myself seeing the partial “big picture” most of the time. There’s always some points I can’t see at the moment, perhaps I’m still lack of experience, and knowledge.

At this age, the age of information, filtering information became a very important task by itself. As information comes on hand too easily, there are not appreciated. I have tons of “knowledge” stored in my harddisk, I just don’t have enough time to digest it. And I always lost focus in the process of going through it.

For the pass few months, I had been upgrading my lifestyle. I had started spending money on grooming, clothing, traveling and hobbies. It’s like I am beginning to settle down on my current status, and I know this is not a good sign… At this age, I am at a good position to take risk. I had enough buffers to sustain my life for a short period, and I don’t have committeemen yet. What better time could it be?

Risk, taking risk, managing risk. Risk is something I am always fears of. I tend to live comfortably, sometimes being too comfortable. This makes taking big risk a very big issue for me, where I lack of experience handling.

I had been fooling around with myself for too long, for not positioning myself well in my career, and not forcing myself enough. My self-discipline is like a mess. Is this because I don’t have a goal in my life?