Met with D today. As usual, he always has a different perspective on how he position himself in the society, how he gain his knowledge and experience, and how to live a life.
People always distracted by what lies in front, they often fail to see beyond the wall in front of their eyes. Seeing beyond is a skills needed to be learn by time, I find myself seeing the partial “big picture” most of the time. There’s always some points I can’t see at the moment, perhaps I’m still lack of experience, and knowledge.
At this age, the age of information, filtering information became a very important task by itself. As information comes on hand too easily, there are not appreciated. I have tons of “knowledge” stored in my harddisk, I just don’t have enough time to digest it. And I always lost focus in the process of going through it.
For the pass few months, I had been upgrading my lifestyle. I had started spending money on grooming, clothing, traveling and hobbies. It’s like I am beginning to settle down on my current status, and I know this is not a good sign… At this age, I am at a good position to take risk. I had enough buffers to sustain my life for a short period, and I don’t have committeemen yet. What better time could it be?
Risk, taking risk, managing risk. Risk is something I am always fears of. I tend to live comfortably, sometimes being too comfortable. This makes taking big risk a very big issue for me, where I lack of experience handling.
I had been fooling around with myself for too long, for not positioning myself well in my career, and not forcing myself enough. My self-discipline is like a mess. Is this because I don’t have a goal in my life?
