Entry 0025: VI The Lovers

一對相愛的戀人，代表著完美的愛情。然而，>>更多時候，戀人這張牌代表著「選擇」。不僅是在你所愛的人之中做選擇，也是為你所無法割捨的兩件事物之間做選擇。有時是理智和情感的抉擇，有時是現實和理想之間的取捨。

正位的含意：幸運的相遇、同心協力、情投意合、豐富的感情、美好的前途、相愛。
逆位的含意：離別的時刻、不醒目、想要轉移目標、關係結束、沒有協助者、遭遇阻礙。

All good things comes to an end, who knows it wouldn't be a start for another good thing?

Entry 0024: VIII Strengh

力不只是代表物理的力量，更重要的是意志力和決斷力。獅子代表人類的慾望和野性的一面，必須以堅強的意志加以克服，是以他也是一張代表「自我控制」的牌。 某些塔羅牌，以女人和獅子表示這張牌。女人代表一種無限的溫柔，完全的包容、馴服了猛獸，是一種更為偉大而無法抗拒的力量。
正位的含意：精力充沛、不區不撓、扭轉乾坤的意志力、潛藏的力量。
逆位的含意：精力不足、急躁不安、危險的賭注、喪失信心、忍耐力不足。

Am I handeling things the way I want?

Entry 0023: i dun have feel on u lar...yeah .. just fren

She suddenly shows concern on me, telling me not to spend all my money on travelling, and save more money to but car/house...
Then she told me that it was just an advise from fren ...dun put in heart ar, tat no caring lar, dun ki siau lar, i dun have feel on u lar

XVI The Tower was referring to this?

Entry 0022: XVI The Tower

塔代表著毀滅，全然的結束，閃電代表著突如其來的意外災難。 或許\和死神的意義相結合，塔是一個強制的結束，必須先有完全的破壞才能重建。 塔的逆位置代表「毀滅的預感」、「毀滅即將來臨」。

正位的含意：麻煩不斷、逆境、遭受打擊、信念崩潰、壞局面、突發事件。
逆位的含意：瓦解、要有懸崖勒馬的勇氣、口舌之災、內部糾紛、緊急狀態。

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Entry 0021: The Trip

I had finalised the trip detail and all email was out. The process cannot be stop now...

Entry 0020: IV The Empreror

皇帝代表著父權的形象。他就是權威，他的話語是不可反抗的。嚴格而公正的執行著律法。皇帝代表著全然的支配和掌握，一種絕對的男性形象。

正位的含意：有行動的魄力、眾人的領導者、穩定的根基、男性化的、富有責任感的。
逆位的含意：幼稚、缺乏管理能力、不負責任、任性、蠻橫霸道、欠缺慾望。

I am going to make some decision today, is it suggesting me to be firmer?

Entry 0019: Self assesment

I need to have more initiative in every aspect of my life. I haven't been putting full effort in my work, I had postponed my exam for too long, and I stop my daily morning walk for quite a while.

I might want to be cruel to myself……

Entry 0018.2: Continue what I had started

I am making arrangement for my next trip, Pulau Perhentian. The details are being finalise right now, soon I can start collecting deposite.
I had ask quite a lot of people, I wonder how many of them would be travelling with me?

Entry 0018.1: Hopes it stops here

Just had a small accident just now. Result, my shoes were covered by mud, my windshield crack, and it left me only half of my clutch...

Entry 0018: I The Magician

魔術師代表著一切的開始，事物的開端。 火、風、水、土四大元素放置在桌上，魔術師的頭上有著代表無限的記號∞(Lemniscate)。 他創造了這個世界。魔術師也同時代表著一個充滿開創新局的智慧和高度操作技巧的形象。

正位的含意：有獨創性、有發展性、以新的計畫獲得成功\、幸福的開端。
逆位的含意：低落、失敗、漫無目標的旅途、散漫、愚昧的行動。

Looks like it's time I redefine my purpose and put soem real efforts into my work.

Entry 0017: One fine day

Met with two married friend today...chat over a late lunch, and learn about some skillsets I need to learn for my own good. Need to force myself a bit.

我需要對自己嚴格一點...

Entry 0016: XX Judgement

這張牌來自基督教末日審判的傳說，天使將吹響她的號角，死者從地面重生。 新生命的來臨之前，是對舊有自我的裁判。只有面對和接受自我的錯誤，才能獲致新的契機。

正位的含意：復活的喜悅、決斷的時刻、命運好轉、公開發表、改革期、好消息。
逆位的含意：失敗了不再振作恢復、未發表就結束了、不妥的決定、不能決定。

Doesn't seem like a good day...

Entry 0015: Next Trip

I'll be the organizer for the next trip, Lang Tengah. The price is still unknown, the date will falls between 21 April ~ 24 April. Head count, should be about 10 people.

I'm planing to get my scuba license too.

Entry 0014: Seed D #15

Maya Sakamoto finally have chance to present, she has such a sweet voice. Next week will be a recap, it would be nice if I could just skip it...

Entry 0013: Accidental Tourist

As a stranger, I found myself fitted into the group preety well, except the fact that she's been avoiding me...

I was hanted by the idea of going missing in action before the trip, that was a bad idea.

It was a happy trip, thanks to the Sun that was shinning on me.

Entry 0012: I The Magician

正位的含意：有獨創性、有發展性、以新的計畫獲得成功、幸福的開端。
Seem likes this is a good start. I just return from a fruitful trip, exhausted but I enjoy the trip very much. I met some people, make some friends, and hopefully clear some doubts...

Entry 0011: XIX The Sun

正位的含意：明朗的將來、有活力、有慾望、非常活躍、貴人相助而成功。
This is what I draw this morning. The Sun means that I will have a good, new start, wih a bright future. Nothing's bad is waiting in front.

Entry 0010: I did it again.

I realize that I will do some mindless shopping while I felt depressed. Like today, I bought another two box of models, an overbought comic (now I have two copies), and a pair of shoe. I don’t know why I did it, the urge is there. The only thing flowing through my mind is “What’s the worst it could be?”

Two more box into my collections...

Entry 0009: 我已經習慣了孤單

一個人的時候﹐我總是很會安排自己的時間﹐把一整天塞得滿滿的﹐完全不讓自己有想她的空間。
這樣是否因為我已經習慣了孤單呢﹖

Entry 0008: Seed D #14

大天使號出航了﹗看得我真的有點感動﹐就如重遇好久不見的朋友一般。
看到舊事才會那麼興奮﹐我果然只會緬懷過去...

Entry 0007: The Party

今天我出席了兩個四歲小朋友的生日派對。
人很多﹐很熱鬧﹐可是熱鬧背後﹐我還是感覺到無比的寂寞...
氣氛很好﹐小朋友都玩得很盡興﹐可是歡笑背後﹐我還是感覺到無比的孤單...



正在唱生日歌的小朋友們。

Entry 0006: 如果我爱你

如果我爱你...而你正巧的也爱我.......

那.....你生病的时候..我会去照顾你..陪着你到好....
你駕车的时候..我会要你小心一点..还要你到的时候打个电话跟我说...
你忘了吃晚餐的时候..我会装做狠生气..然後说'你这样会让我担心耶!"
你头发乱了时候..我会笑笑的替你拨一拨..然後..手还留恋的在你发上多待几秒
你想哭..我会陪你掉泪..尽管前一刻我的心情其实是雀跃的..
你要笑..我会陪你笑出声..不管我上一秒其实是沮丧的..
我在空闲的时候..会念念你的名字.想想你的声音..
我在逛街的时候..会想到"啊!你正好缺了这个..." 我在发现了好东西的时候..一定马上想到''一定要你来看看''..
我失眠了之後..听到你也失了眠...会在心里偷偷的傻笑...
我在熬夜的时候..接到你只为了说声'不要太累.早点睡了..'的电话. 会甜甜的笑着..而且乖乖的去睡...

我在想着你的时候..知道你也在想着我....

但是.... 如果我爱你...而你不巧的不爱我.........

那......你生病的时候..我只会打通电话慰问你.不敢奢求待在你身边...
你駕车的时候..我只会暗暗的在心中希望你安全...
你忘了吃晚餐..我只会笑笑的问'为什麽不吃阿?'...
你头发乱了..我只能轻轻的告诉你'头发乱了喔'....
你想哭...我只能在旁边无奈的轻轻叹气着...
你想笑...我只能微微的对你笑着...
我在空闲的时候...还是会念念你的名字..想想你的声音..
我在逛街的时候...会想到'是谁帮你买了这个了吧...'
我发现了好东西的时候...会无奈的想着'会是谁告诉你这个好消息呢'...
我失眠之後...会躲着不让你看见我的黑眼圈...
我在熬夜的时候...不敢期待会有电话声..响起来..
我在想着你的时候..会想到..这时的你..是想着谁呢?...

Entry 0005: What's happening to me?

I found that my tyre were flat when I’m about to get to work. Normally I would feel really down coz I had a bad morning, but today I don’t have that feeling….am I that down until this kind of event won’t affect my mood?

Entry 0004: A long day

I spent a day with her, working…I did enjoy her company along the day.
Even though I can’t have lunch with her, being by her side for so many hours did make me feel better.

Although I was caught in the rain on the way back, I still carry a happy mood while I was soak wet, haha.

Entry 0003.1: Do you know the way?

She called me after receiving my sms...at first we were discussing about the way to her office, and then it became a regular phone chit-chat.
She mention a 30+ guy going after her, and she talk about things happened in the pass, what she expect in the future, etc. I found that she remember very tiny bits I had told her. And I sense some hint in the conversasion...

I need to get a car soon...

Entry 0003: Good night

She just sent me a good night via sms. I greet her back.

Entry 0002.2: She's doing it again

She's doing it again...prusuading me to give up on her.

I'll see her tomorrow in her office, I wonder what will this become?

Entry 0002.1: i din hate u ar

I had a long chat with her after work, first it was just regular chat, then she bring it up. She says things like she's sorry for me coz she treat me bad, can't accept my love, having no feeling towards me.... I ask her if she hate me right now and her answer is "i din hate u ar"

Entry 0002: Surprises...

She caught me in surprise today...I wasn't expecting to see her, so I wasn't prepare at all. I didn't shave, and I didn't prepare anything for the meeting. Luckily I got the voice port fixed. Thanks, Jason.

She cut her hair, she looks cute with her new hairstyle.
We don't have much eye contact, as if she's avoiding me, or I'm the one that is afraid to look into her eyes. I'm not sure for anything right now.

How long do I need to be like this?

Entry 0001: Seed D #13

Just finish watching Gundam Seed Destiny #13, this is really a exciting episode. (Any episode is great after a two weeks gab.)

Expecting to see Archangel in action next week.

Entry 0000.1: Too many kits, too less time

Part of my unopen collections...

Entry 0000: 不要讓我們陷于誘惑

I had an iMax 3D experience today, watching Polar Express at Time Square. I really enjoy the movie even though Christmas is long gone.

I took a walk in Low Yat plaza after the movie and found a surprise. A Bandai Star Trek Enterprise NX-01 kit that cost only 160…I took about 1 hour to think it over and went to the shop and grab the kit.

Now I have a bigger problem. When will I have time to build it?